Matapos ang nagdaang bagyo at gawing relocation site ng ipis, daga at aluhipan ang kwarto ko, narealize kong pawis lang ang mawawala sa pagkatao ko kung patitikimin ko to ng malupit na paglilinis. Iba talaga pag boarder ka sa inyong bahay. At sa wakas, June 20, 2014, a Sunday morning, rain is falling, nag-eyeball na ang sahig, walis at basahan ko. Nabulabog din ang mga itlog ng cockroaches sa pag-itan ng mga libro ko.  Nasalanta ang mga agiw at sapot sa may ilaw. At boompanes! While doing my chores, may mga natagpuan akong kayamanang naibaon na pero muling nahukay; mga souvenir ng nakaraan; mga sentimyentong may kadramahan.

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you’re scared. you’re scared of being left behind. again. you don’t want your feeling to be played again. to be left with nothing after giving you a piece of heaven. to expect another fairy tale dream after awakening. back then, you smiled. you kissed. you hugged. you laughed together. you cried alone. you fell. you gave love, but never been loved back. unaware that it only last for days. and now, you are exhausted to pretend that you moved on. you want to forget the moments that once precious. that odd feeling still pokes you once in a while. you’re scared. are you?